Oddly enough, love does. I find a text book I need for a class and little did I now it would be the introduction to a new adventurous chapter for me. Captain calmly walked in and strolled his way into my head and my heart. This guy treats me as if I were the princess I pretend to be everyday. He not only wants me in his life, but my babies as well. And that means the world to me. I dont know what I would do without him right now. He is incredible. I love you Joey.
So much has been going on. It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve heard from you. I hope you’re ok. I still think of you all the time.
It’s always a sad day when a bad that means so much to you breaks up.
Took another wrong turn. And no one to talk to again. I’m tired of being alone. When do I get my shoulder to cry on? When will I have some one who will listen and I can listen to? This is starting to take its toll. Really. I don’t feel so good about anything anymore.
I was there!! It was so great!!
Everything has fallen apart. Seriously, everything. And I’m starting to think I’m not amazing enough for anyone to want or stick around.
I am going to cry myself to sleep. If I don’t a job in four months my money will be cut off. What am I going to do?!?! I search all the time!! How will I take care of Laura!?!?! I’m going nuts!?!?!
So it ended before it began. Once again I am left feeling sad, alone and feeling not good enough. I need a damn beer. I miss you Zombie.
Feels so weird trying to not fuck up making a relationship happen with one person when you are in love with another. Ranger is an amazing guy. We want to do this right and try for something real. I haven’t tried for something real in so long, I don’t know what I am doing. I want this and I can’t rush it. If I screw this up, I’ll be crushed. Trying for a ranger and thinking of a zombie. Smh-I’m fucking screwed.